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so i don't wanna go back to vallejo just cuz its so boring and I really don't have close friends.. and really just talk about nothing or maybe gossip cuz there is nothing to talk about... which is pathetic. and i kinda reallly maybe like it here, but I hate my grandmother.. it grows and dies as times comes. My mom might buy an apartment or house here and there's this program where you go to community college for high school for free BUT graduating here is such a pain. Like those tests in California that if you don't pass, you don't graduate.. and it's sooooooo freaking easy. Its HARDER, very harder here. We have three separate tests and I'm pretty sure its not so difficulty hard and i'll pass.. i just don't want to deal with it. AND THEN there's the "senior project," it can be anything you want, you gonna have a multi-paged paper and, I believe, an 8-minute speech on your topic. That's just too much. Probably cuz so many kids are on crystal meth.. whcih out of all the drugs.. not smart.

American Idol. The first time I've really seen it since the first season because they kinda whine and make me. I'm SO much blinder now.. like WOW.

uh i have an athro class. and a wanna be like senior project thing on an animal of all topics in anthro. grr.

Every since I got here in Vegas it seems like I just can't sleep. I keeping thikning about situations past and could come up in the future and, of course, worrying about the now as in WHAT THE HELL AM I GONNA EFFIN DO ?! I think up agruments and now past agruments could have better. I think its the way I haven't been able to really talk to anyone for a good minute and when I get the chance I become shy, quiet Veronica.

I HATE IT!

There are so many goddamn clicks its not funny. You aren't really taken into mind unless you are smart and have smart classes. Stupid asses. I have to wait to be recoginzed. Damn teacher kiiling my favorite subject. Miss high and mighty and doesn't fuckin teach her subject correctly. I AM NOT here to re-learn my freshman class. AP, not to be confused with regular cause I'm paying eighty fuckin dollars to take a goddamn test.

"I love you ba- bay if its quite alright..."

and that stupid song in my head won't effin stop.

So I'm in vegas with my grandmother and the "cool" aunt.

Does everyone have one of those?

I'm sooo.. I guess, uncomfortable here with them. Its like I can't be me. I gotta restrict myself to barely heard words, and "I don't know"s. i have no idea what it is. I'm cool with my grandma but I've been bursting with high maintenance temper making my grandma believe I don't love her. I can't help my temper. Ever since I've been here I can't stop talking back or being 'smart.' I feel so horrible that I try not to talk yennoe to accidently get it to something that pisses me off. Goosh, if you lived with my grandmother, you'd either be amused by my grandmothers "cuteness/silliness" or blow up like I do. I can't stop with my opinions with her... just not my aunt, I guess.  UGH!

So officially starting school in WESTERN HIGH on Monday. Yay? I think not. The secretary bothers me, too. So much effin` make-up, g'damn.. and with the most unexpecting colors, too. Like bright teal or magenta. With matching huge earrings, rings, and pins. THHHEEENNNn she me friggin` go to that school for a week at SEVEN in the effin` MORNING! And not really going to the school. ECKKKK! So I had to get shots today for my immunization records. THREE! Hmpt. They hurted.. still do. I hate shots tho I'm proud I didn't cry. Hahaha. Mr. Changus says that I'm a good kid and student and good luck. My mom kept telling me. HAH! The registrar and my counselor thinks I'm smart. HAH! They looked at my transcript. Did they or did they not miss the D in one of those classes? Gees.  I don't have AP bio. instead just ap chem. cuz it was offered the same time as ap english. ehh so I still have two science classes.. wtih uhm reg. physics cuz that's the only one avaible. I got adv. orchestra.. even tho i don't play strings. Retarded. uhm they got this all junior class thing for college presentations. HAH! imma bout to sleep through that. 84 EFFIN` minutes in each class and lunch only 30! ECCKKK! 8 periods. They got hella electives.. better than Vallejo. yeaapp.  Guess ya can tell I'm excited/nnervous, right?

SOOOOO.. my auntie is goin` out dancing! NO FAIR! I hella wanna go. Stupid underage rule. SOooo I cannot wait until i get my friggin` car here. My baby nissan. Hahaha.

My arm hurts.

I have a feeling that I'll need to get braces later on in life. I hate retainers. So I almost never wear them. It's gonna kill me one day. R.I.P. Veronica Delgado, death by retainer. I got my grave stone planned out and everything.

Getting fat and stupid each and everyday. wonderful, no? Gosh, it cracks me up .. on those diet pill commericals and that lady is hella serious. Damn!

I'll go crazy if I don't do something during the day expect going online.. and re-read books.

SO I met this lady ... its depressing. She keeps bringing up her xhusband and all the good he did.. while he had a girlfriend. Its like she's reminising. SHe doesn't obsess about it.. just if something reminds her of  the good things he did. For example, how he would go out two in the moring just because she was craving pineapples and when there wasn't any, he'd get the frozen ones and unfreeze them for her. So two of her xhusbands used her for her money as a nurse. Ain't that lovely?